Avery turned two months old today. Such joy. My due date isn’t until November. So surreal. It’s amazing how quickly our life was turned upside down. It’s even more amazing that we’ve been given the painful, yet miraculous, opportunity to witness the development of our infant daughter from week 23 of her life. Each time we visit her, even though it’s only been hours since we saw her last, I notice something new and notice that she’s changed. This morning, I felt giddy looking at how much her hair has grown and how her cheeks are now getting chubby. Happily, she is still on CPAP, and also on full feeds through her feeding tube (no more pic line!) She’s started at “8” on the CPAP, is currently at “6,” and needs to get down to “2” before she can move to the nose cannula. After that big step, she’ll be able to start to learn to eat from a bottle.
We have been enjoying the absolute beauty and comfort of “kangaroo care,” which allows us to hold her against our skin. Time flies when we have the opportunity to cuddle with her.
We never take a single hour or bit of progress for granted, and are endlessly grateful for the phenomenal care she receives at Inova Fairfax from the entire staff. Even though Avery is in a different room of the NICU than where they work, Sienna’s nurses still visit Avery every time they are on shift, and often come by to just give us a hug and a smile. They will always feel like family.
I get through the long days by reminding myself that Avery will not remember this time of her life. We will remember, but she will not. I believe she will continue to amaze us throughout her life with her strength and courage. For two months we have seen her fight harder for her life, and endure more, than many people will in their entire lives. For the miracle of her heroic feats, we will never complain that we still have an undetermined amount of waiting until she comes home, and (as we’ve been warned) potentially more ups and downs as is the proclaimed, “life of preemies.” We are focusing on the “ups” and in gratitude for each moment we share with her and for the love she is receiving from around the world.