I have been hurting for a long time now but my pain was compounded two days ago when I spoke with one of the NICU parents that we met during our first days in the unit.
I wrote about Mike early on and explained how he had lost his wife unexpectedly while she was 24 weeks pregnant and that was the reason that his daughter was born premature. I also wrote about his generosity and caring nature. I explained that he had given us clothes for our girls and had been there as a literal shoulder for me to cry on when we first were told that we were losing Sienna. I feel like he and his daughter have become part of our family. Mike is a wonderful soul who has been dealt a terrible hand to play and his story has unfortunately become worse.
Mike explained to me two days ago that his daughter, Layla, is unfortunately not going to make it. While she did not suffer the intra-ventricular hemorrhage that Avery did, she did suffer damage to her brain stem-the area of the brain that produces the most basic of reflexes. She will most likely never be able to carry out the basic steps of eating and would likely never have any quality of life. With tears welling in his eyes Mike explained to me the options that he had before him and none of them are good.
Even after losing Sienna, I cannot begin to fathom the thoughts that are going through Mike’s mind, and I hurt more and more each time I try to put myself in his shoes. Please, everyone that reads this, say a prayer for Mike and Layla.
Mike, you will forever be in our hearts and if ever you need anything I am only a phone call away.